things to start doing:
- drink more water
- carry a camera everywhere i go
- read more books than i already do
- go for walks
- do yoga more often
- go to bed earlier
- enjoy the little things
- go outside more
- stop comparing myself to others
- stick to my goals n stop putting things off
- write down my feelings
- smile more, especially at random people
it probably seems like i cry over stupid shit but tbh i usually end up crying because i’ve stored up all of my upset feelings from multiple things rather than express them and then the littlest thing sets me off like spilling my drink may not be that big of a deal but when i’ve stored up that many negative emotions it feels like i busted a hole in the hoover dam
The amount of respect and trust my family has for me makes me sicker than I already am. In their eyes I would always be a bullshitter and a liar that could never be trusted. My own parents doesn’t want me to be around the house, because my mom is too afraid my dad would contract the illnesses I have because of his low immune syst. When my dad found out I was sick he gave me one phone call. Which I heard nothing but yelling. He mentioned that it was my fault to why Iam sick right now. I leave the heater on for too long or I take a shower at night. When in reality we rarely turn on the heater “to save money”. I wake up in the middle of the night shivering. I was never part of their priorities. Everyday I come home from work and my dad is home I hear nothing but yelling. Once they are in need of finance assistances they wouldn’t think twice about borrowing 200,300,500 dollars from me. They disgust me.
Anonymous asked: do you know who jacee is?
No, I don’t know who jace is.
when to have me; you
cannot turn me off like too
loud music. Please don’t
teach me that I’m the kind
of person you need a break
from. Love me all the time
or not at all because I’m too
fragile to be left on pause."
The head of a company survived 9/11 because
His son started kindergarten.
Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn’t go off in time.
One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.
One of them
Missed his bus.
One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.
Car wouldn’t start.
Get a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work but before.
He got there, he developed a blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today..
Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone…
All the little things that annoy me,
I think to myself,
This is exactly where
I’m meant to be
At this very moment